Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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Saturday, May 17, 2008
5:05 PM

I have just finish my weekly report.

Tommorrow got to work again. BORING~ Normally most people like public holiday but for me, i don't like it at all.
1st reason : I cannot take a break during this kind of day.

2nd reason : I got to work like a slave on the service line and bring out my fake smile to people I don't know and I don't wish to know. Its not as if I want to take this as my part-time job.

Last reason : I hate the working environment, be it the heaty environment, the working staffs or the customers. I simply hate it to the core!! Don't ever tell me to give in to it because of the pay, if you are going to give in because of the pay, so be it. Because you and me are totally different, you don't understand me at all. The pain, the sorrow, the anger whatever shit, you just can't understand me!!

I envy those children who can enjoy their childhood, those teenagers who can enjoy their teenage life. Because I don't have either one of them. Why do adults like to force their children to act like an adult when the time isn't right? Is this the correct way to educate your own precious children?? Is my life meant to be like this from the start?? I wish Kira really exist and hope he can write my name in the Death Note.

is it true?? by any chance can i get to see you again?? i need you to be by my side because i can't hold on anymore. when can i see a hand reaching out for me, just for me?? what is happiness?? can it be felt and how do i know its happiness??

If only I'm a sleeping beauty, I wish i can sleep and never wake up forever. If only I'm a snow white, how I wish the poison will be able to kill me at once without having the prince to give me a peck and wake me up. All these are just my wishful thinking. Yeah?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, May 16, 2008
11:18 PM

Jus nw went to had dinner with Sharon, Wendy n Kim. We did not dine in at Subway due to the time constraint. So our dinner was settled in the foodcourt of century Square. At 7pm, we except Kim went to catch a movie. We're watching Speed Racer. This movie uses lots of 3D effect, tis is all i can comment about it. Quite a comedy because of Speed's younger brother, not forgetting himself too. As for Rain, his English wasn't bad, except for some lines. Quite pity for him because his first appearance in the movie wasn't those handsome dashing one, it was quite a horrible scene because he was beaten up when he appear in his first scene. Poor thing. (Maybe we can consider it as a setback for him ever since his last news)

After movie, we went on separate ways. On my way back when I'm inside the bus, there was these one bunch of teenage girls, laughing their ass off like nobody's business. At that moment, I really feel like asking them to shut their mouth because it's irritating. Plus the people who sits around me were also talking away, and mind you, my ears were plugged in with ear piece, and I can still hear their voices. Not enough, there was this old lady standing behind me and talking away on her phone, her voice was so damn clear that even after I increase the volume of my mP3, I can still hear her. WTF! I don't know what's wrong with my mind also, out of a sudden, I thought of many things regarding my life. Many things just popped out suddenly as if my mind was like an endless hole. Everything is just not going smoothly as what I thought it would be.

I guess my mood won't be that good for the next few days or maybe weeks.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, May 10, 2008
9:55 PM

today went to Causeway Point to shop and then dine in at Pizza Hut to give my mum a good treat. i spent 450+. OMFG!!! unbelievable, cos i spend them in my mum's presence. She just nag and i just let her nag la..btw the amount includes the food and my mum's so called present. LOL so my expenses is around 390+ also OMFG!!! whaha...

i bought clothings and watch. haha...the watch is the most ex among my expenses. and my mum was like o.O O.o, u spend so much on a watch...hahah...cos its time to change my watch anyway it has a warranty of 5 yrs for the battery la...so i guess its worth it and i bought it under 10% discount lei...actually got 50% discount, but i dont like the design so i choose the 10%. ok i know u all will be saying i'm a crazy freak. ok watever! as long as i like it...ok i'm stubborn n rebellious.

Luckily i ytd completed my weekly report. If nt right now i wont have the time to blog also. i realised my reports are so short and sweet compared to my fren's. but too bad i jus cant help it as i'm running out of words already. Anyway i dont tink Barnabas got read it too, if he got read it then let it be. i dont give a damn to it.

ps: Barnabas's engine is running on 'Manual' not 'Auto'.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, May 3, 2008
3:21 PM

ok...i know i've been neglecting tis blog for a long time...i'm jus so sorry my dear blog.Recently my fren had just made a remark that she seldom blog is bcos she has totally forgotten that she has a blog and also that her frens [which includes me] are nt blogging too. whaha...oh my goodness, i'll try my best to blog often ok?? haha another week is over! again RESEARCH all the way. seriously my grp has got 5 person, and we r being split into 2 grps. one doing on Medical Dashboard and drug Calculator and the other is on Wounds and Web Monitoring [ which is mine]. and my grp only got 2 person. sad to say, we're nt making any progress. Reason being, it is difficult to find free streaming server in the Internet. and then we're being told to look for it. pls la,Sir u might jus as well tell us what is the server's name. u don wanna tell us at least jus hint abit also can. don keep disappearing can?? its like making us think that we're the ABANDONed grp. *shake head* then the other grp is like doing on their things, and i can see they have a little progress already. Everyday research on the Internet, then is like all the weekly report is only about RESEARCH lo. who will wan to know bout the reasearch?? Luckily ytd's Game Day is still on. if nt i will sleep for sure! Played badminton frm 4 to 4.50pm. then headed off to the bball court and join in the next game, our team consist of me , wendy , afiqah and Samuel. Opponent: one short guy, 2 skinny monkey and muscular guy. end up who win?? make a guess... haha actually i also dono which team win. i guess i look kiddy in my sec PE shirt. whaha... Right now i'm suffering some muscles pain on my upper arms. luckily my legs were nt.i shall exercise more so that during my NAPFA, i wont be panting so much.haha ps: i love the sun esp afternoon sun. i jus miss it so much ever since sec 3.

expressing the emptiness inside me..