I have just finish my weekly report.

Tommorrow got to work again. BORING~ Normally most people like public holiday but for me, i don't like it at all.
1st reason : I cannot take a break during this kind of day.

2nd reason : I got to work like a slave on the service line and bring out my fake smile to people I don't know and I don't wish to know. Its not as if I want to take this as my part-time job.

Last reason : I hate the working environment, be it the heaty environment, the working staffs or the customers. I simply hate it to the core!! Don't ever tell me to give in to it because of the pay, if you are going to give in because of the pay, so be it. Because you and me are totally different, you don't understand me at all. The pain, the sorrow, the anger whatever shit, you just can't understand me!!

I envy those children who can enjoy their childhood, those teenagers who can enjoy their teenage life. Because I don't have either one of them. Why do adults like to force their children to act like an adult when the time isn't right? Is this the correct way to educate your own precious children?? Is my life meant to be like this from the start?? I wish Kira really exist and hope he can write my name in the Death Note.

is it true?? by any chance can i get to see you again?? i need you to be by my side because i can't hold on anymore. when can i see a hand reaching out for me, just for me?? what is happiness?? can it be felt and how do i know its happiness??

If only I'm a sleeping beauty, I wish i can sleep and never wake up forever. If only I'm a snow white, how I wish the poison will be able to kill me at once without having the prince to give me a peck and wake me up. All these are just my wishful thinking. Yeah?