I envy people who can express their feelings freely, be it face to face or in the net. I like reading posts on how they spend their time with their love ones, how they express their sad or happy feelings. And I will become a fool smiling by myself and envy them secretly.

I know people will be saying I can do the same too. Yes I wish I can but my protective thinking is always stopping me from doing all these things. I know I'm thinking too much but I cant stop thinking.

But right now, I decided to release out part of them.





I dont know why the feeling is on and off.
When its on, I couldnt stop missing the days we spent together.
The smile, the laughter and everything.
Every lil things You do, affects me alot.
I hate it when You do not know how I Feel whenever You are with me.
I hate myself, hate my everything...
I'm tired of everything..