One and Only

Just some thoughts

2009-08-08T17:20:00.000+08:00

I envy people who can express their feelings freely, be it face to face or in the net. I like reading posts on how they spend their time with their love ones, how they express their sad or happy feelings. And I will become a fool smiling by myself and envy them secretly.

I know people will be saying I can do the same too. Yes I wish I can but my protective thinking is always stopping me from doing all these things. I know I'm thinking too much but I cant stop thinking.

But right now, I decided to release out part of them.

I dont know why the feeling is on and off.
When its on, I couldnt stop missing the days we spent together.
The smile, the laughter and everything.
Every lil things You do, affects me alot.
I hate it when You do not know how I Feel whenever You are with me.
I hate myself, hate my everything...
I'm tired of everything..

2009-08-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

these few days i have been heading to NTU for English test, for Welcome Ceremony and for purchasing lecture notes. its very tiring to keep travelling to Boon Lay when i'm staying in Yishun. i began to get sick and tired of NTU when i have not even started studying. Weird right? the first time i have this kind of feeling towards my second home.

The coming week marks the first week of my Uni Life. No more slacking but sweating and stressing all the way through.. Just hoping that I pass my English Test so that i can have one less module to struggle. why do i continued with Engineering course when i have no interest at all is that I study for the sake of studying, for the sake of my mother, for the sake of my future and for the sake that I cant study what i want initially. So this is my chosen path no other way out. just hope that i can struggle my way out smoothly.

2009-07-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

Last Wednesday went to watch Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince with Liying. After that headed down to Bugis. then dine in @ Swenson. i just realised i always go to Swenson and eat...haha like a regular customer sia...

Last Friday went to NTU to have my medical checkup. Its not that i want to go NTU and do it, but I've got no choice, cos even if i did my check-up at other places, i still have to travel down to NTU and submit my medical report. Once i reach there, I thought i could make use of the map they mailed to me. But sad to say i don have any sense of direction, so i jus ask around for directions. i cant believe the level i step once i got out of the bus was Level B4!!! wat shit sia...and the place i'm going is @ Level B2.

Many things happened last weekend. I really hate to know bout this for 3 times in my whole lifetime. 16 yrs ago, 3 yrs ago and right now. the bad history is haunting me non-stop, it jus never disappear. Sometimes i asked myself why mus i always find out all these bad things, right now i'm thinking mayb i brought these all to myself. ya mayb i asked for it. my hidden scar will never diminished, it will always got dug out and ripped apart leaving the blooding flowing endlessly. how i wish i can die right now...

Can i end my life right now??

2009-06-04T20:17:00.002+08:00

2nd June

brought my mum to swenson for lunch, since there is the 1 for 1 lunch treat promotion. went to the money changer and change my japan money back to sing dollar at the same time change Korea Won too...lol i change $500 and they gave me 42 pieces of 10 000 Won notes...so thick la...

4th June

went to run an errand for my dad, change the StarHub Analogue Set-top box into a digital one for free due to cessation of analogue transmission. then one of my best buddy called me out for a movie. haha so random...anyway he drove me around so i don need to bother much plus these days the weather isnt good too. We watch Night At The Musemum 2, my neck almost cant look down due to the near seating to the screen.

fuck off LAN JIAO KIA

2009-05-25T13:28:00.002+08:00

who the hell u tink u r?? u tink u're the president's son??? u tink u're a rich guy's son?? TO HELL U GO!!! U'RE WORST THAN A RUBBISH BIN!!!

Once i got back home frm my lesson, what kind of comment is that?? who do u tink u are to comment bout me??? u aint my brother neither my dad too... WHO THE HELL R U!!!! U'RE STILL A OUTSIDER !!!! CHEE BYE!!! WHAT DO U MEANT BY THOSE THAT GOT LESSER DEMERIT POINTS IN DRIVING TEST WILL MAKE MORE MISTAKE AND U LOOK DOWN ON THEM EVEN MORE!!!! U FUCKER DID I EVEN IRRITATE U IN THE FIRST PLACE??? WHO R U TO MAKE TIS COMMENT BOUT ME??? y dont u jus say that u're jealous that u need to fail twice before passing ur driving test?? LOSER!!!

my dad is jus kind enough to bought breakfast for u, u didnt even said thank you and jus refused to eat it..fine its ok...i tolerate...my mum cut a red apple for u, without tasting u jus said how come its green apple n not red apple...u got no tongue to taste izzit, its a red apple jus that the flesh is abit of greenish...who the hell r u to comment so much!!!! again my kind mother was kind enough to offer u an orange.. guess what tis bastard said: huh i dont eat ORANGES!!!! don u know the basic manner of accepting rather than keep commenting and rejecting!!! i guess ur parents jus didnt teach u manners!!! i cant believe such a person had already came out of army!!! he should be imprison in army forever!!! fucking idiotic asshole!!!

next who r u to use my things without my permission??? u're jus a guest that doesnt give u permission to touch my things..

tis will be the last time i'm toleratng ur nonsense...next time round u better watch out!!!!

2009-05-18T18:16:00.004+08:00

once again i'm dumping my blog aside...
well i've been doing nth during the holidays except slacking at home plus a few outings wif fren...recently jus so many things had happened...all of a sudden my grandmother just passed away due to congestive heart failure. right now is the 2nd day after her body has been burnt. hopefully my life had start afresh.

ytd went out with Wendy Laura Hui Hoon and Zhen Rong. intial plan was to go Bugis but end up we went to City Hall and shop around Marina Sq n Suntec. to me its doesnt seems like shooping, its like some sort of meet up with fren after such a long vacation had passed. cos we met up at 2pm and i was alte for bout 25 mins, then we started having lunch at Pasta de Waraku. started walking at 4.30pm all of them were tired, so they doesnt have the strength to shop. i was the only hyper one that wanted to shop but the mood isnt there cos of the surrounding. Well, just anyhow window shop.
since they were tired, we settle down at Gelaire and chit chat drink coffee. Ok i'm mus confess that i'm the only one drinking coffee. chat a few funny and sad stuffs...trying to dig some secrets n some memories. haha...that is all for yesterday. Boring right...haha...

Suddenly i got this urge in looking forward to Wed's Graduation Ceremony. Can meet up with frens, celebrate graduation after the ceremony but still dono the plans yet...

p.s : hope can enjoy all the way without any constraints...

why cant ppl think twice before asking qsn??

2009-03-21T12:11:00.003+08:00

我越来越不能理解她了！！！
ever since she stop working and stay at home, she have been such a nuisance to me... all the matter in my life she will always wan to interfere, asking me this and that, blaming me wif all sorts of possible reasons that she can came out of... what exactly is wrong with her???

my hp rings, she also wan to know who is it. i know its nth wrong telling her who is it, but in the previous incident, i told her who is it, she will continue to ask why she look for u, how is she doing what is her results...all sorts of qsn she can tink of...its damn irritating to ans her qsns... tis time round she heard my hp rings so many times, she started to ask me who called me, but actually its jus message ringtone. i told her nobody called me, u know what she kept saying but jus nw i heard ur phone rang quite a few times. i continue to shake my head, she still insist that its someone calling me. OMFG!!!!! i choose nt to tell her its message ringtone, cos i knw the next moment she will ask me who is it...i don wan her to interfere so much and bother me loads of qsn...then she started to bring up the past matters, something like settling the past scores with me. WTF la...always like that, i told her off and she is pissed off right now that she don wanna tell me what she is cooking for lunch. fuck man!!!

fucking irritated by her nonsense...till now i didnt went to look for job and she is constantly nagging at me for nt looking for a job. seriously she is getting on my nerves recently!!!! my sis's prob she will always ask me, my sis irritate her she will nag to me as if this nag will solve all the problem!!! what the hell is wrong with her brain??

not only is she interfering my life, her new pattern is to arrange some talk regarding some health products without asking me and telling me that she already fixed a time for me to go!!! WTF i'm nt an artiste, u aint my manager too!!! stop this kind of irritating acts!!!!

2009-02-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

finally exams over...waiting for graduation...lol don even know can graduate or not...i guess i shall nt talk bout those 3 papers anymore, what is done cannot be undone... right?

these 3 days have been attending driving lessons. very interesting and fun. get to drive up the slope and stop on the slope, then drive down slope...haha but manual driving is giving my legs a big problem. i have been experiencing the after effect of manual driving...haha dono why also...i guess maybe its because i stiff my leg too long due to the half clutch problem. haix...nvm i guess i will get used to it...

i need someone to motivate me!!!

2008-12-28T12:31:00.002+08:00

OMG i'm so not motivated!!! tmr is the first day of sch reopen after the 2 weeks term break and i have not completed a single report!!! i'm dead!!! the moment i cant find the info i wan, i will start to play with my pet. OMG see hw motivated i am... pls can someone save me frm this shit?? i dono hw to start the report la...hagte it so much!!!pls motivate me!!!! give me the motivation to start my report!!!

currently down with flu, kept sneezing non-stop!!! jus feel like plucking my nose off!!

2008-12-19T15:46:00.002+08:00

i have been abandon-ing my blog ever since i came back from Japan.

now that MP judging is over, i finally got time to breathe a little. why a little?? because i'm still pack with other project which wants us to write alot of reports. so sick la...cant they jus leave out the documentations, why must every proj comes with a report?? so sick man.

time passes real fast, one week of my 2 week term break is going to end soon. that is like so fast la...and i got to rush 3 reports. can u imagine i have not even done a single one not even to say start on one yet. I'M SO DEAD LA!!!

After poly, what comes after?? UNI?? which uni?? my results nt even out yet and im thinking of my future. people esp teachers like to ask what is ur ambition, and i'm always scratching my head. No matter hw hard i scratch my head i got no idea what my ambition is. and all my frens were like i wan to be this and that most of the ans i got was to be a teacher. hmm....teacher for me?? i don tink so. taking up jobs related to my diploma?? i guess i will be struggling like hell....
ARGH!!!

i wan to sing , bowl and have fun before term break ends!!!

TWILIGHT!!!! i wan to watch... anybody wan to watch with me??

2008-10-18T19:58:00.002+08:00

Last Monday i went for a study trip to Japan, Fukuoka. all i can say for the flight is Torturing!! Its my first time taking air flight, and its 7 hrs plus my flight was in the midnight. So i hardly can sleep in the plane.

Its a 5 days trip, and i'm back to SG on Sat afternoon. I didnt managed to shop much cos most of the places that we went, the things are too expensive. i was thinking of buying some things back, but then all the things need to be stored in the refridgerator so i got to give it a miss. Make a few fren through the trip. There is the farm stay where we got to stay at with one host family. the food they offered us was so delicious la and the quantity is damn huge. Its quite a great experience to stay in those japanese traditional way of living. That is the only day we got to eat sushi the other days are mainly bento...BORING!!!

Kinda miss the moment. Hw i wish time can turn back to the trip so that i would enjoy myself more. i really regret...

Next week is the start of new semester. got to rush finish my project.haix...

i regret asking regret letting regret keeping distance!!!!!

Finally...but still...

2008-08-30T13:15:00.002+08:00

Wow, i realised i had left my blog rotting for 1 month plus...which is a bad thing... so sorry..

Finally, ytd marked the last day of the whole miserable MP/SIP period. i realised during this sem, i'm more prone to fall sick. so sad after ytd's dinner with my buddies at Cafe Cartel, i got to spend another 28 bucks for my medication...one big hole in my pocket!!! so sad, the doc say i cant slp in air-conditioned room, no fruits, no cold drinks, bascially no food that will irritate my throat. so sad which means no spicy food either...=.=

my SIP report still not done yet, i don feel like doing it either but its consider as my self appraisal, so no choice got to finish it.

off to complete my report...bye

2008-07-26T18:33:00.002+08:00

I just came back from a movie session with my Mum and Bro. I treat them, and my Mum treat us popcorn. LOL We watched The Dark Knight. Nice show to catch. Shall not say more spoiler. =) Christian Bale is very handsome.

Ok thats all for today, I goin to do my stuffs.

Sum up

2008-07-12T15:49:00.002+08:00

Last wednesday, i went to watch 'Wanted' wif Fiqah and Wendy. The movie wasnt that bad, but i was quite fascinated by the gun Angelina Jolie used when she came out in her first scene.

Last friday, Kim, LY, Wendy, Rod n i went to Clark Quey to celebrate my bday. Initially we wanted to dine in at Waraku, but then the queue was like OMG, so we had to change another restaurant to dine. I had to say that almost all the nice food restaurants were full and the waiting queue are so damn long. End up, we dine in at Azuma Sabo(i'm not very sure about the name). The food nt that bad, the desserts also not that fantastic also. After dinner, we went for a stroll along Singapore River and walked around those bars and pubs. I felt so disgusted when i saw those bar girls with the orange hot shorts. You can imagine , the cloth that covers the butt is like so little as if the boss got no $$ to pay for additional cloth to cover the butt. Yucks!!

This tuesday, Jiawen and i went to Nihon Mura for dinner. Quite a nice dinner with her, because I got to catch up with her on recents 'news'.

Yesterday, went for ceremony and guess what it ended at 5.30pm. Its like so damn earlier than the previous one. Then we rush out for the Refreshment. The food isnt that bad, but i and wendy prefer the chocolate dessert, wendy ate 5 and i ate 2. I wanted to take a few more but then all gone, because Alton ate too much. When we came out, Alton was already eating and he didnt even finish his food and he continue to take some more. LOL... After that Laura, HuiHoon,Junxian,JunSheng,WeiQuan,Joel,ZhengRong,Wendy and I went to catch the 7 pm HellBoy 2: The Golden Army. This movie is nice. guess what Prince Nuada look like a FF character to me because of the hair. muahaha

i wish i didnt notice about you. if nt i wont feel so miserable missing you everyday and night.i hope my wish will come true.______________

2008-06-21T17:14:00.002+08:00

How should I start?? If it is about project, there is some progress already. Still got more to go before the entire MP period is over. I got to 'huai ting'. LOL

Yesterday exercise time, I and Wendy went to Bedok Reservoir to run. I got to worship Wendy, she really can run. I got no stamina at all, and all the while I'm walking instead of jogging. Haha. The award that I receive from the run were 4 blisters on both of my foot and muscles aching through-out the entire body. This shows that i haven been exercising. Haha..

Today just went to do pedicure with my sister at AMK. After that went to have lunch at KFC, suddenly my sister discuss driving lesson with me. So we just headed down to the Sungapore Saftey Driving Centre to book our BTT. Both of us took Manual. Each of us had to pay $161.15 for the Enrollment, Theory Lesson and the BTT. Hai...money again.. Alamak!! Broke liao la. And my appointment with BTT is on 3/9/2008, 8pm.

2008-06-06T21:29:00.002+08:00

again i forgotten to update my blog. my project's progress is still the same actually.

these 2 weeks, my house is under painting in progress. the smell of the paint is so yucks. i wish it will end soon.

fucking irritated! do as u please ok, regret to give advice. fuck off listen or nt is ur own business, better don show ppl ur fucking pathetic face.

2008-05-17T17:05:00.005+08:00

I have just finish my weekly report.

Tommorrow got to work again. BORING~ Normally most people like public holiday but for me, i don't like it at all.
1st reason : I cannot take a break during this kind of day.

2nd reason : I got to work like a slave on the service line and bring out my fake smile to people I don't know and I don't wish to know. Its not as if I want to take this as my part-time job.

Last reason : I hate the working environment, be it the heaty environment, the working staffs or the customers. I simply hate it to the core!! Don't ever tell me to give in to it because of the pay, if you are going to give in because of the pay, so be it. Because you and me are totally different, you don't understand me at all. The pain, the sorrow, the anger whatever shit, you just can't understand me!!

I envy those children who can enjoy their childhood, those teenagers who can enjoy their teenage life. Because I don't have either one of them. Why do adults like to force their children to act like an adult when the time isn't right? Is this the correct way to educate your own precious children?? Is my life meant to be like this from the start?? I wish Kira really exist and hope he can write my name in the Death Note.

is it true?? by any chance can i get to see you again?? i need you to be by my side because i can't hold on anymore. when can i see a hand reaching out for me, just for me?? what is happiness?? can it be felt and how do i know its happiness??

If only I'm a sleeping beauty, I wish i can sleep and never wake up forever. If only I'm a snow white, how I wish the poison will be able to kill me at once without having the prince to give me a peck and wake me up. All these are just my wishful thinking. Yeah?

2008-05-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

Jus nw went to had dinner with Sharon, Wendy n Kim. We did not dine in at Subway due to the time constraint. So our dinner was settled in the foodcourt of century Square. At 7pm, we except Kim went to catch a movie. We're watching Speed Racer. This movie uses lots of 3D effect, tis is all i can comment about it. Quite a comedy because of Speed's younger brother, not forgetting himself too. As for Rain, his English wasn't bad, except for some lines. Quite pity for him because his first appearance in the movie wasn't those handsome dashing one, it was quite a horrible scene because he was beaten up when he appear in his first scene. Poor thing. (Maybe we can consider it as a setback for him ever since his last news)

After movie, we went on separate ways. On my way back when I'm inside the bus, there was these one bunch of teenage girls, laughing their ass off like nobody's business. At that moment, I really feel like asking them to shut their mouth because it's irritating. Plus the people who sits around me were also talking away, and mind you, my ears were plugged in with ear piece, and I can still hear their voices. Not enough, there was this old lady standing behind me and talking away on her phone, her voice was so damn clear that even after I increase the volume of my mP3, I can still hear her. WTF! I don't know what's wrong with my mind also, out of a sudden, I thought of many things regarding my life. Many things just popped out suddenly as if my mind was like an endless hole. Everything is just not going smoothly as what I thought it would be.

I guess my mood won't be that good for the next few days or maybe weeks.

2008-05-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

today went to Causeway Point to shop and then dine in at Pizza Hut to give my mum a good treat. i spent 450+. OMFG!!! unbelievable, cos i spend them in my mum's presence. She just nag and i just let her nag la..btw the amount includes the food and my mum's so called present. LOL so my expenses is around 390+ also OMFG!!! whaha...

i bought clothings and watch. haha...the watch is the most ex among my expenses. and my mum was like o.O O.o, u spend so much on a watch...hahah...cos its time to change my watch anyway it has a warranty of 5 yrs for the battery la...so i guess its worth it and i bought it under 10% discount lei...actually got 50% discount, but i dont like the design so i choose the 10%. ok i know u all will be saying i'm a crazy freak. ok watever! as long as i like it...ok i'm stubborn n rebellious.

Luckily i ytd completed my weekly report. If nt right now i wont have the time to blog also. i realised my reports are so short and sweet compared to my fren's. but too bad i jus cant help it as i'm running out of words already. Anyway i dont tink Barnabas got read it too, if he got read it then let it be. i dont give a damn to it.

ps: Barnabas's engine is running on 'Manual' not 'Auto'.

2008-05-03T15:21:00.001+08:00

ok...i know i've been neglecting tis blog for a long time...i'm jus so sorry my dear blog.Recently my fren had just made a remark that she seldom blog is bcos she has totally forgotten that she has a blog and also that her frens [which includes me] are nt blogging too. whaha...oh my goodness, i'll try my best to blog often ok?? haha another week is over! again RESEARCH all the way. seriously my grp has got 5 person, and we r being split into 2 grps. one doing on Medical Dashboard and drug Calculator and the other is on Wounds and Web Monitoring [ which is mine]. and my grp only got 2 person. sad to say, we're nt making any progress. Reason being, it is difficult to find free streaming server in the Internet. and then we're being told to look for it. pls la,Sir u might jus as well tell us what is the server's name. u don wanna tell us at least jus hint abit also can. don keep disappearing can?? its like making us think that we're the ABANDONed grp. *shake head* then the other grp is like doing on their things, and i can see they have a little progress already. Everyday research on the Internet, then is like all the weekly report is only about RESEARCH lo. who will wan to know bout the reasearch?? Luckily ytd's Game Day is still on. if nt i will sleep for sure! Played badminton frm 4 to 4.50pm. then headed off to the bball court and join in the next game, our team consist of me , wendy , afiqah and Samuel. Opponent: one short guy, 2 skinny monkey and muscular guy. end up who win?? make a guess... haha actually i also dono which team win. i guess i look kiddy in my sec PE shirt. whaha... Right now i'm suffering some muscles pain on my upper arms. luckily my legs were nt.i shall exercise more so that during my NAPFA, i wont be panting so much.haha ps: i love the sun esp afternoon sun. i jus miss it so much ever since sec 3.

2008-04-27T22:13:00.002+08:00

ok, first week of official MP is over. Damn sian lo...really feel like a jail bird.i noticed that the grps that are in the same lab as me, their supervisor kept seeing them for meeting or wat so ever. but mine is like so rare lo...hard to get him though he is free twice a week.and his timetable is like he only need to teach 5 hrs in a week and yet he got no time to come in and see how are we doing for the project. -.-

as usual, today got to work. damn sian la...heard quite alot of things..and i'm sick and tired of hearing so much unpleasant things, jus hope that i can get out of tis shit as soon as possible!! mayb i shld jus shout at them and ask them stop acting!! if u're unhappy bout something jus speak it out, dun always try to smile and then next moment backstab others!!! suckers!

i know u all may tink that i'm what u all tink, i don deny, but have u ever know that mayb inside me, i'm jus hoping that i can minimise the hurt that i've caused and felt. whether to forgive, its up to u. i don wanna say anything cos i can feel it.

2nd day of sch re-open

2008-04-22T22:01:00.002+08:00

sorry that i've MIA for long time...hee

ytd first day of sch re-open. no different to me expect the working hrs, cos its 9-5.30 instead of 5!!! damn TP!!! hate u so much!!!! As usual, RESEARCH all the way!! damn bored la, Supervisor din even wan to give us a task to do and he din really like care bout us lo...we're jus abandoned workers...

today, 2nd day of MP. I'm already late!!! freak la, double jam lo...first jam at the route to AMK, next is the usual jamming place. stupid traffic, every morning i got to stand for 45mins. reach Tampines inter, bus long queue!!! WTF lo. so unlucky!!!

got to target by 8.30 reach sch!!! like dat i will soon be a panda!!!

2008-04-01T10:33:00.002+08:00

next week my MP will be starting...thats is what Mr Woon told us... he ytd brief us on our projects and told us we mus be back by next week...

its a challenge!!!

2008-03-22T17:15:00.002+08:00

ok i MIA frm work again...whaha...

btw ytd was Good Friday. pathetic me, got to work straight after i recover, but nt fully recovered, tis time is cough!! damn la...like that i cant have a proper sleep at night. kao ytd damn lot of customer lo...all like hungry ghost sia...so early come out to find food...frm 9.15am non-stop till 2pm. tiring and i kept panting non-stop lo...cos i can feel something is stuck at my throat and i cant get it out!! aRGH!! kept walking here and there cos of those hungry ppl la...cant they see the queue is long and pls la...use ur common sense u also know u wont be serve SHORTLY!! HELLO U TINK WAT, U TINK WE PPL ARE SUPERMAN IZZIT??? THE FOOD DON NEED TO BE COOKED BEFORE SERVING MEH?? i guess ur brains are on ur buttocks!!

i jus wan my holiday to end soon...cos i don wan to work!! i wan to start on project!!! though i know there will be difficulties that i got to face, but i'm willing to take up this challenge.

sick

2008-03-20T21:01:00.002+08:00

Last 3 days jus went for the MS Boot Camp. Well, i really dono what the hell tis training is all about, cos they are using C# language and i'm learning VB language. then all the labs we learn, i also got no idea what the purpose is for cos mostly are jus copy and paste. on the last day of camp which is ytd, i was down with flu the moment i reach sch plus a sore throat which i had bcos of the Cafe Cartel dinner i had on Tue. ok i'm jus so weak!!

after the camp i went straight home to rest. Had my bathe and dinner, then took Clarinase and off to bed. i slept frm 7.30++ till the next morning. on and off, i kept waking up cos my body temperature was quite high, and i couldnt sleep properly. this morning wake up, whole body muscle is aching, feel like my head weigh tonnes. but thanks to Panadol, i'm alright after 3+ in the afternoon.

Oh ya, the boot camp lucky draw, i was the only girl among all the prize winners. somemore i got the grand prize. i was telling my fren that i wont be that 'lucky' to be called out to take the prize, end up i must admit i lost. haix...

2008-03-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

today i din went to work cos i don feel like to...hack care those F***ing aunts...

jus nw heard frm Wendy that i wasnt in the Boot Camp.... damn fuck up de lo, i register end up din managed to get in...all bcos i din reply Barnabas's email that why he din help me reigster again...and i wasnt in the camp.... and that fucking selfish LimTC help his grp to register...mine only send 1 representative also cant get in..CB la...CB LIMTC!!! go drink ur teh C la...teach AMCAPP also dono hwo to debug, everytime ask David Yeo to help u do all these stuff...u call urself a tutor, u might as well fuck off!!!

damn feel like blogging anymore...the news jus ruin my mood!!

2008-03-11T22:18:00.003+08:00

Wow its been a long time since the last post i've ever updated. oops! Currently i'm working for my father, haix...sad to say i cant get out of that shit!! so this holiday will be work...work....work....and WORK!! sad seh!!

Today rain whole day, i must say its cool cos i don need to work like mad. thanks to the rain...met my cousin Jojo, finally she came if nt i and her meet up will be like Leap Years...whaha j/k! my dad drove me back home due to the heavy rain...then he tried to lecture me in the car, ask me to work for him through out the holidays, i was like -.-, then the next moment its my turn t lecture him!!! whaha...u wanna lecture me?? NO WAY!!

Last week went to watch 'The Leap Year" wif Liying. quite a nice show.Saturday went to IT Show with my sister. Guess what i bought a new mp3 again...i guess someone must be saying i damn rich!! i'm nt lo...jus feel sick of my current mp3. i must say i'm faithful to Creative, the new model i bought is Zen 16GB. then spent quite alot at 'TheFaceShop" again...all bcos of my sister, told her nt to go in, she insisted end up i got to 'donate' money to them!! ='( so nw i got to earn back my cash...but i must praise that outlet's manager for her clear explanation on the products...

thrusday results will be release...i'm so scared!!! tink of results i'm loss of words to say...=(

Outing

2008-03-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

today went out with Jiawen.
First stop : we headed to Coca Restaurant for lunch..damn shiok...the service is still as good as the last time. the food is still the same...haha...total cost :38.85 cheap rite??haha

Second stop : Shopping spree...erm only for me la...i bought a shirt from Zara, a bag from Rip Curl and a shoe at Far East. then continue to walk around town after that walked to Plaza Singapura for a little bite at Glarie.[ hope i din spell wrongly ]

Last stop : Back to Yishun then home sweet home. i quickly smuggle in all my 'loots' cos i cant let my mum know what i bought esp how much i spent in total, if nt i'll be in dead meat! A great success in smuggling cos she aint at home when i reached home. whaha...lucky me.

ps: i wan to watch 10,000 BC!!!! thurs: The Leap Year!!! yea ^^

2008-03-01T17:50:00.002+08:00

ytd jus heard some news frm my mum. she told me that there is a lack of manpower at my grandma's shop. i was like u don expect me to go there and help out lo, i wont. the next sentence i heard frm her was: "since u're having ur holidays now, why nt go and help out." i kept quiet cos i don wanna argue or say anymore cos i know she will end up saying all the same old things.

i jus wonder why they cant help us think a little...'Hello, my holidays jus started and its nt even the first week is over yet and u are asking me to start working in a fucking environment. dont i deserve some holidays to enjoy?? yeah yeah yeah, u can jolly well say when i'm enjoying i'm wasting money at the same time. But then the money belong to me, i have the rights to spend it, as if i keep the money wif me, the money will grow more and more!! if thats the case then what are banks for??
i cant possibly stuck at that kind of work forever, years later i may need to go out and look for a job, understand?? so dont always tink that we're able to help u forever!!

2008-02-29T10:39:00.007+08:00

finally all the exams are over...time for HOLIDAY ~
erm...i guess i shall not talk about the papers cos they jus suck to hell!

Wednesday's highlight:

after the paper, went for lunch then waited for hours before 'Juno' starts. in between, we(ly,kim,rod n me) went to Cafe Cartel bcos Rod have not had his lunch yet, as for the rest of us, we went there for dessert. but end up, it turn out to be a treat for 3 girls. Thanks Rod! [you are so handsome on that day] - quoted LY's usual phrase. whaha =) found 2 spokesman for Cafe Cartel, they are Kim n Rod. LY took mass shots of them, posing as spokesman.

after that went to take neoprints. ALL I CAN SAY, I WAS FORCE AND I WAS DEFEATED BY KIM.haix...so i got no choice but to take the shots.

as for the movie, moderate rating only. i din really enjoy watching it.
after movie, went back home. there comes my emo. i had a lonesome dinner at a coffee shop near my house. Alone sitting down there eating, the feeling was quite fun.

end of Wednesday Highlight

Yesterday:

went to AMK Hub wif my sister. Acc my sis to POSB cos she wanted to apply the Orange Debit Card, i wanted too but i'm using thumbprint so i cant, i need to change it to signature then can apply. headed to Fish & Co for lunch. ate seafood platter and hot fudge cake. next stop to The Face Shop to replenish our facial products. spent lots of money, can feel the big hole in my pocket.

Today:

SLACK SLACK SLACK ALL THE WAY!!!

2008-02-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

Today jus went to watch Kung Fu Dunk with my sister. the show wasnt tat good, quite lame. but overall not bad. after that went to dine in at Sakae Sushi, i treat my sister bcos its her Birthday today. Went yishun's outlet and saw my Secondary sch fren, Jason. He gave me discount sia, i ate 10 color plates in total, end up he wrote 5 plates only. Thank you my fren.

Right now, beside me while i'm bloggin, is my brother. He is so irritating, kept disturbing me by asking when he can play online games. feel like smacking him.

Last Day Of Yr 2.2

2008-02-16T10:21:00.002+08:00

Ytd is last day of semester. finally i can take a short break. actually i wasnt suppose to be going sch ytd but bcos of a stupid Major Project briefing, i had to. No choice bcos its compulsory!! the briefing starts at 1 end up it end at 1.30. stupid la, waste my time to go there. luckily we did plan to watch movie after that.

Went to watch Jumper. the male lead is so handsome. Overall the movie is not quite bad, but its jus that there are some mystery at the end. i shall not give any spoiler. haha...if i am a jumper, i will jump to SM Entertainment to see my husband and my lovely DongHae. haha..i'm tinking too much.

At Last...

2008-02-15T01:10:00.003+08:00

today is Valentine's Day is also a so call Relax day for me...cos at last, my projects are all cleared!!! yea!!! finally, cos past few months had been feeling very stress cos of projects. only till today i can relax...

after lesson, waited for rodney together with LY n Wendy. then we went to have dinner together, celebrate V day and also project free celebration.whaha...tis is what my frens said. then we started to talk about the past when we first met each other during the Orientation. Quite a cute memories to recall to. Overall, we talked about lots of things. i would elaborate so much, if nt u readers would be bored. wahaha

every years V day is like a lonely V day to me, cos i'm nt really celebrating it, and then i must walk the streets and see many couples on the street, holding hands...stick to one another even when they are walking...LOL i'm being lame, trying make tis post look lengthy.

if only i have the courage to do so, i wonder what would the outcome be?? will it be possible btwn us?? if only the dreams come true, i guess i wouldnt have daze so much when i'm alone. do u know, i really wish the dream would come true....因为我想被你爱。但我相信这是不可能的。

Angry ARGH!!!

2008-02-06T00:13:00.000+08:00

i tot i can clear off 1 project, in the end i cant!!! tutor asked too much already la, we left such a little time to do, and he wan us to change this and that, then we waited for him so long, end up he din even access us!!! WTF!!! u tink we don have any other projects need to do meh?? u tink we so free ar!!! We are nt so pro like u, if we are then our positions shld have switched, and i wont be the one suffering.

nt inside the requirement, u say its a must!!! then its so beyond our reach, u still say, figure out urself!! tmd la, f off la!!!

asshole lee, u turn my world upside down!!!!

Unstable

2008-02-03T12:45:00.000+08:00

omg...tmr is AMCAPP quiz 2 though the format is 20 mcq each holds 2mrk and 1 qsn on DTD writing worth 10mrks, but i'm still so worried just like the last time i did the quiz 1. hai

today i didnt went to work cos i got to rush ASP and study for tmr's quiz. poor thing, i cant even get a proper rest during weekend and not even to mention its near CNY. i doubt tis yr's CNY will be fun like last time during some hidden reasons. Sometime i know i'm a irritating freak who like to go around to share my ugly family background, but i cant help it. Bcos i'm so stressed wif lots of things, my kins aint giving me a break, they jus freak me out when i'm jus trying to enjoy myself. my ears aint listening to me, they jus wanted to be a nosy parker and listen all those ugly truth. Inner me is just so weak, it is very emotionally unstable, once it heard something bad, my whole mood will be in a mess!

who can save me?? i guess i will suffer even more once March come.

No one knows what i want, sad to say not even...........my mum......... =(

All New

2008-02-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

how shld i start?? erm...i dont like to start anything, i prefer to be the 2nd instead of the 1st. cos first always got to do some intro and some other shit which is detest a lot!

currently, all my projects deadlines are coming up soon, feel so sian...got to rush here and there. yr 2.2, i realise i tend to stay in sch more often after my classes, all i do is stare at the computer for long hours and stick my butt to the chair. seriously NO LIFE!! in sch there are projects arising, at home i also have matters arising too. FEEL SO SICK SO SICK!! 1st month of 2008, i already get so tired of everything, i wonder what my next 11 months will be like...will it be even more worse?? or will it be a 360 degree change?? i have no idea. o.o

today thought of clearing my bfa report, but end up, i have so much of doubts and regret making that stupid decision. dont feel like touching on my ASP.Net project either, but i'm jus so unlucky that next tue i got to demo to teacher. afternoon brought my mum to Ang Mo Kio for pedicure service, and i have both pedi and medi for myself...haha =)

fmtn : JIA YOU, PXM and PYY, we can do it!!